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aniversaries

2007-08-10T11:28:44+02:00

First (1st) Paper (T) - Wine/Flowers(M)
Second (2nd) Cotton (T)- Books(M)
Third (3rd) Leather (T) - House Plants (M)
Fourth (4th) Flower (T) - Pottery (M)
Fifth (5th) Wood (T) - Crystal/Glass (M)
Sixth (6th) Candy (T) -Copper (M)
Seventh (7th) Wool(T) - Lines (M)
Eighth (9th) Bronze (T) - Wood (M)
Ninth (9th) Pottery (T) -Pewter (M)
Tenth (10th) Tin (T) -Art (M)
Eleventh (11th) Steel (T) -Gourmet Cookware (M)
Twelfth (12th) Silk (T) -Leather (M)
Thirteenth (13th) Lace (T) -Clocks/Watches (M)
Fourteenth (14th) Ivory (T) -Iron (M)
Fifteenth (15th) Crystal (T) - Pearl (M)
Twentieth (20th) China (T) -China(M)
Twenty-fifth (25th) Silver (T) -Silver(M)
Thirtieth (30th) Pearl (T) -Coral(M)
Thirty-fifth (35th) Coral (T) -Jade (M)
Fortieth (40th) Ruby (T) -Ruby (M)
Forty-fifth (45th) Sapphire (T) -Sapphire (M)
Fiftieth (50th) Gold (T) -Gold (M)
Fifty-fifth (55th) Emerald (T) - Emerald (M)
Sixtieth (60th) Diamond (M) - Diamond (M)

*Year
*T = Traditional
*M = Modern

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u make me special

2007-08-10T11:27:47+02:00

You make me feel special,
You make me feel new,
You make me feel loved,
With everything you do.

You hold me close when I am sad.
You wipe the tears from my face.
Every time we are together,
It seems like the perfect place.

My eyes light up when you enter a room.
I smile when we are together.
No matter how bad things are,
You always make them better.

I love the way you kiss me,
The way you hold me tight.
I love the way you touch me,
I could be with you all night.

I love the way you can make me laugh
For absolutely no reason at all.
I love how no matter what I do,
You will be there to catch me when I fall.

I just want you to know,
That even though we sometimes fight,
I will always love you!
No matter what, day or night.

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man i love - my husband

2007-08-10T11:26:55+02:00

I miss you so much, can you see the pain inside my heart… I send you text, a way of showing what my heart feel for you… even though I don’t have a chances that you will receive or read it… I just pray that once my message is sent that you will receive it… part of my heart hope, part of it had a doubt…

When I wake up in the morning first thing I do is to open my laptop and check my mail… hoping I have an email from, but just like yesterday no email from you… I’m expecting thought I know it’s impossible for you to send me email… coz you way to busy, but its okay… when you have time I know you will send me one…

I wait for you to be online… thought I know you already sleeping… I still wait… seating in front of my laptop… listening Kenney Chesney songs, check a message forum to get information for the update for the site… but I don’t get any luck getting info same with I don’t have luck for you to be online…

Yet I understand… I don’t have the right to complain… do I… you know I stop myself from looking at your picture in the wall above the left side of my laptop… coz every time I do… I feel like you look directly at me… which in fact you do… coz I was the one who toke the picture…

I sure miss your green pair of eyes… I sure miss kissing those luscious lips of yours… I miss your laugh, I haven’t heard it in a while… I miss our talk… funny, I call you for me to be able to hear your voice… coz that all I can do for now, we can’t have long talked… bcoz of your job… but most of the time I end up in your voice mail…

My heart says I have to hear his voice… I must hear it… heart sure persistent… without the help of the alarm clock I still manage to got up in the middle of the night and call you… although I must say I might disturb you, but still I wont be able to sleep good if I don’t hear your voice…

It’s okay with me if you don’t have time to send me email or to be online as long as I can hear you voice… when I wanted to hear it… I know what you voice sound it’s in my heart on mind… but still I want to hear you voice straight from you lips not from my heart or my mind… I find satisfaction and happiness every time I hear you voice…

Since that all I can do for now, is to hear you voice… since I can’t be with you… I miss you so… from the deepest part my heart that aches for you… "its okay with me to sleep just the like sleeping beauty as long as, during the time that I was sleep… I’m with you… until the right time comes that you will kiss me… for me to wake up… and I will be with you this time for real not on dreams"…

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my sweet husband

2007-08-10T11:24:46+02:00

At lonely night as I lay on my soft bed all I could think is you… I think of your green eyes that show a thousand words that moth can say or speak… your eyes that have seen many places… beautiful places I wish I have been there so I could see what your eyes have seen..

I think of your nose that touch my hair… that some time I think is I do smell good… that some time I ask myself… what in his mind every time I got off from the shower… some time I want to ask him if he like my perfume… or if I do smell good at night…

I think of your lips… your sweet lips that say the words I love to hear… your lips that taste sweet as chocolate… its feels good every time you lips touches my mine… soft lips, that surely know how to kiss me… you lips that say “I love you”…

I think of your soft and strong hands… that touch and caress me at night… that touches my hand… holding my hand with a message… your hand that are warm… that every time I feel could I just grab your hand it help me feel harm…

I think of you’re heart, a passionate heart that know exactly what it want… that even though I don’t know how to get rid of the things that make your heart worries… and I don’t know how to make you heart feel joy…

I think about you… the whole you… the man I love… that man that I promise to love and cherish… four year since we’ve know each other and still my heart feel the love… and it grow deeper as we share moment together as day goes by and by…

I must admit, I never though in my life I’m going to love a man as I love you… I never though I’m going to learn things to show you how much I love you… I never though someone will love me even though I’m crazy and wild…

I love you and its always been you… I want you to know that my heart feel love only to you… my heart know you… my whole me know you… even my soul know you soul… I love you and missing you always…

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poem of loneliness

2007-08-10T11:23:26+02:00

Some time I can’t help myself

From blaming why life is so unfair…

Yet I know everything has it porpurse…

God has a porpurse for me, for us…

All I can do is to Pray to God

For Him to help me and give me strength…

For Him to give me courage

To face my sadness and loneliness…

There time I woke up in the middle of the night

Searching for you, yet you’re no where in sight…

I go back to bed thinking and dreaming of you…

Until I fall back to sleep, image of you in my thought…

When I’m sad and blue I wrote a poem just for you…

It helps me take my emotion of loneliness

Caress me to skill I didn’t know I have until I meet you…

You always bring out the best in me…

Thank you so much and I love you my Sweetheart...

I might feel lonely yet I'm still lucky for I have you

In my life, 8000 miles away or not...

I have the rest of my life to be with you/be with you...

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no ordinary friday

2007-08-10T11:17:57+02:00

Thank God its Friday like other people will say… but as for me it’s just an ordinary Friday last day of the weekdays… since I page the church page that I have work for a week… right now I’m just waiting for the my pastor to give me money to buy a domain name for the church… but unfortunately until now we have talk about the domain name of the church… I must say I’m excited to put the page that I have work too the web to see who it turn out in the web… beside I can’t add a forum and a IM in the page until the page is not yet online…

So far since I’m not really busy, I’m been trying to look for a job online… and guess what I have enroll in a cooking class… yep, cooking class… you must be asking why so sudden I decided to attend a cooking class… well for now I still can’t talk why… though I must say I have my reasons… the class will start on October… I’m going to attend cooking class in morning then I’m going to attend my college course in the afternoon until evening… the class will end on February, after that I’m going to take civil service eligible so I can apply as a cook at MacArthur Park Beach Resort… to enhance what I have learn in cooking class and at the same time help me with my studies financially…

All though it’s not the mean reasons why I suddenly decided to attend cooking class… but all I can say this is for my future… I’m trying to enjoy life as it goes at the same time plan for the future… for my future for this is that has left for me… anyway I’m looking forward for my cooking class… and you know what I want to master baking cakes and pastries… so that when one of the member of the family celebrate birthday… we don’t have to buy cake, I will be the one to bake cake for the family… isn’t it exciting… as for me I’m excited… beside one of my dream it to put up a restaurant and it will… I already know where I’m going to put my future restaurant and I have a name for the said restaurant… is going to be secret for now… 

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is this where our love ends

2007-08-10T11:16:40+02:00

We’ve love; we’ve care to one another… we’ve touch, we’ve kiss ‘til our hearts content… we’ve share dream… we’ve made plans… we got married and become couple…Two years and half of marriage… and I never though it will end this fast… all though I must I already saw it coming… But how come I was still unprepared… I guess because I still hope that things… will turn out good… but I guess I was wrong… if someone don’t what to be in the… relationship it has to end… Even if one of the parties don’t want too… for there no use to being together… if love is not anymore in heart of someone… even though it’s hurt one must let go… Even though we really didn’t have… time to be together, for you’re always away… that even though you’re near your still… far away from me… What the use of trying to save… something very important in you life… when he doesn’t want you anymore… he doesn’t care, he forgot… Now the one that was left behind… are having hard time… pretending… pretending everything is okay… pretending that she is happy… That even though he makes her heart is crash…she still think of this man… that she love truly, and still in love… with all her heart and mind… At night she whispers his name… at day he on her thoughts… she want to stop but she don’t know how…she want to move on with her life… But she don’t know where to start… living a life, knowing that she is using…his family name, she will never… stop thinking the man of her life… I just hope once we see each other in street… please pretend that we don’t know each other… coz if you say “HI” it will broke my heart… for you to forgot, what you did to my heart… You will always have special part of my life… I will cherish all the memory here in my heart… and I will always here waiting for you to come home with me… my heart will still be open for you….

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